This blog is to share with whoever cares to read it about my daily struggles with depression, feelings of worthlessness and despair. But i also will add daily things i succeeded or accomplished that make me feel better about myself.
Everything i do, i try to do as a selfless and caring person. But with this, i find that i am just as petty and ridiculous as the most lowly human being. I find my increasing lack of empathy and happiness at other peoples accomplishments and life events, to be utterly diminishing to the point of queen bitchdom. Right now i am unemployed and my feelings of uselessness are strong. The depression just kicks when i'm laying on the ground. And everyday it gets stronger. The feeling i'll never care about anyone just nags at me and eats away at the little hope i'm holding.
My only hope is this blog will be a place to throw all feelins of anger, hatred and negativity so i can move on and have some happiness. Thanks to everyone who may read this in advance and my hope is you will read on as i post more this week.
Glad to see you are trying something like this, speaking from experience it helps and even better to not let people know about your blog that may be offended by what you say so that you can speak your mind no matter how dark it can get.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the feedback ange. I hope it gives people more insight into my struggles. It'll get dark im sure lol
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